I don't know about you, but as a woman, I'm in a constant battle over food. Is it healthy?
Should I eat this? Why don't I have any self control? Even when I cave, and eat something I probably shouldn't, I'm mentally chastising myself while I'm eating it. Seriously!
So the other day, I had an epiphany, in the Irving Gas Station, of all places. If you're from New England, you might know about Irving. Well, the Irving near my home in Portland, Maine, has just about anything you could want, from breakfast pizza to flip flops. Well, not that you need flip flops now. Anyway, the people behind the counter are so nice! Always pleasant, (despite having gotten up at 3:15 a.m.), a kind word for everyone.
Well on this particular day, I'm in a hurry. I have to get to the studio, I have a siege of special orders, and I get a diet soda. Diet soda, the stuff with all the chemicals. I really shouldn't have this. Benzyne, right? Something like that? I should probably get water. Water, right. So much better for me. No calories. No flavor, either, but no calories, no caffeine. SO much better.
This is an example of the internal conversation over the daily diet coke I have. So then, being in a hurry, I grab one of their homemade muffins. Not the one that has the dollop of cream cheese on top, just a plain muffin. If you just read about my guilt trip over diet Coke, well then you can imagine the internal dialog regarding the muffin. Oil probably. and all that sugar. You really don't need this. Get something better. Better yet, go home and make something. You need to eat healthier...etc., etc., etc.
I finally get to the register and the nice lady rings me up. The lady I see just about every day, and as I leave, she says, "Enjoy your muffin, honey!" and that's when I had my AH-HA!! moment.
Enjoy your muffin. How simple. Life is one decision at a time. Make the best decisions you can, but when you decide to indulge a little, well then, enjoy it. Give yourself permission to enjoy your muffin. Guilt. SO overrated.